I was chilling with Pharrell in my dream,,

[Written sometime in February] So I’ve been sick the last few days, which I usually view as inconvenient. But I didn’t wanna doordash anyway, so I’m not even mad tbh. I have been sleep a lot though, and today I had a long series of dreams. Parts were very disturbing, so I’ll let them fade into lost memories. But I think the end of my dream had something for me to hold onto-

In the dream, I was outside with a group of people. Who, I don’t know, doesn’t matter. It’s bright and sunny, and we’re traveling either by foot or by bike or golf cart I reeeaally don’t know, but we’re moving through a natural landscape of hills and valleys. There are green fields covering them. We cross one small hill, get to lower and flat ground, and then another hill which is taller. When we get to the valley behind the second hill, it’s lush green grass, but the third hill is very high- and very steep. We make the trek up, get to the top, and it’s narrow, not a lot of room to stand or walk on. Like the hill comes to a point. But it’s so beautiful up there; on the other side is an abundance of lovely plant life, a thriving atmosphere. Also, we’re completely comfortable at the top of the hill despite lack of space. I’m drinking bubble tea, and Pharrell and another famous rapper or somebody like that are sitting next to me and this other person. Pharrell starts freestyling over this beautiful beat, and he’s flowing and it sounds amazing. I take out my phone to document this moment when the person sitting next to me knocks over my bubble tea, and it kind of spills near Pharell and unidentified rapper’s feet. I’m mildly annoyed but all of us are really unbothered; there’s a peaceful energy where we are. Also, Pharrell and the unknown rapper are sitting in chairs which appear to be hovering on the side of the hill. Whew.

On top of this happy ending, I woke up feeling the cold BROKEN- another prayer answered. (Thank God🙌🏽)

Reflection

The symbolism in my dream feels obvious this time. Quitting my full-time job in 2022 has been a blessing, but a valley nonetheless. The hills are moments of success in my dream career- being a professional musician. Various ups and downs with my health feel like setbacks while I try to build businesses. “Man who chases two rabbits catches none”- yea well I ain’t tryna hear that, I need the money NOW. God has been working on my patience a lot. Six years seems like too long to get my music on streaming, everybody around me has done it already, Des stop comparing yourself… I’m really not tripping about it as bad as I used to. I realize that you can’t plan a music career; I also realize I have to do what works best for me, and even though I haven’t worked it out yet, I’ve never stopped trying. Everybody’s journey looks different. It’s been a worthwhile fight to maintain my creative freedom. I’m really happy with the work I’ve done so far on my music career, and I still have the opportunity to make things happen on my terms. Also, I spend a lot of time educating myself in this arena so I’m not blind. Ponder the path of your feet, And let all your ways be established. Do not turn to the right or the left; Remove your foot from evil.– Proverbs 4:26-27 (NKJV)

This week month year has been hard. No cap. But I feel encouraged in my valley, knowing God is always with me, and I see a new hill up ahead.. one I intend to climb with His help. To God be the glory.