I was really inspired by this visionary podcast today and wanted to document my highlights.

I encourage whoever finds this to let this video speak to you as well.

Moments that stuck with me (paraphrased):

• I experience the ebbs and flows, but I am still the ocean, not the wave

• There cannot be a dream without resistance

• Sometimes we overly identify with the positive aspects of a dream, missing out on the fullness of what a dream is (dream + resistance)

• Pursue embarrassment, pursue failure- you will do this because the vision you hold is bigger than any individual failure

• Being a visionary requires patience to experience the polarity of having a dream

• Ask yourself, do I want the illusion of this dream or the reality of it?

• Surrender to the fullness of the dream, which includes the resistance (weird feelings, negative experiences etc.)

• There are people who are rooting for you, who want exactly what you are here to give

That’s love folks 💗 the collective calls you to be yourself. Pursue a healthier you, my love – DESIRE

The BONUS Joint:

I wanted to talk briefly about why I featured this picture:

Outwardly, it’s a picture of success. I’m on stage doing what I love, and I look like I couldn’t be happier right? You wouldn’t have guessed that after this performance, I sobbed for nearly 2 hours to my mom and best friend about how embarrassed I was. I didn’t do a sound check, and got through 3 songs of my 5-6 song setlist before I was told the audience could barely hear me. I finished my set, although it was very hard because I couldn’t really hear myself either.

It was the biggest venue I had ever played, and I was given the headliner slot of the event. I did all the preparations myself- built the setlist, rehearsed, hair, makeup, styling, I think I even carried my own equipment in. My amplifiers were too small for the huge space, which I would’ve known if I had scouted the venue first. I really beat myself up about that.

To be honest, I’m still burned by my failures from that year. I haven’t set foot on stage since 2023. But I haven’t given up on my dreams of sharing my music with the world. On the internet, and in real life.

So it really resonated with me when the podcaster mentioned the reality of dreams is the cute stuff, and the resistance. Pursuing a dream for years requires patience, which is why I’m still in the running to become America’s next top pop star. My vision keeps me going.

Hebrews 10:35-36 (New International Version)

35 So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.

36 You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.